bla

WTF.

proof of nothing

worth mentioning no

why do?

No know.

https://www.mediafax.ro/tehnologie/noi-imagini-cu-suprafata-planetei-marte-surprinse-de-catre-instrumentul-cassis-foto-19916510

Poze vechi cu mine

Imi plac nu imi plac nu conteaza; daca iti plac nu ma intereseaza, daca nu, la fel.

*each picture holds a special place in my heart* For I… blabla.

Goddess
Inspiring red
A mask I loved
Hmmm
O da.
Nu simteam nimic.
Mesajul nu a fost inteles. Literele nu erau doar de forma. Invitatie? Hmm… Pentru cine? *wink*
Bani si sanatate. La momentul respectiv nu aveam bani dar era trendy sa se vorbeasca despre financial ruin si findoms, si asta a fost my take on it. Bancnota de 1 dolar si multe carduri goale. DA BINE!
I did ^^ == same shit but wronger. Ahahahahaha.
BUG?
Invoke BUG again?
No.
I simply cannot take this as an answer, or proceeding step in our interaction.
Green grows the lily oh
Right among the bushes oh
A gentleman was passing by
And he stopped for a drink
As he was dry
[Chorus]:
At the well below the valley oh
Green grows the lily oh
Right among the bushes oh
My pack is full unto the brim
And if I were to stoop I might fall in
[Chorus]
If your true love was passing by
You’d fill him a drink if he were dry
[Chorus]
She swore by grass, she swore by corn
Her true love had never been born
[Chorus]
He said: Young girl you’re swearing wrong
Six fine children you’ve born
[Chorus]
If you be the man of noble fame
You’ll tell to me the father of them
[Chorus]
There’s two of them by your brother John
At the well below the valley oh
Another two by your uncle Dan
At the well below the valley oh
Another two by your father dear
At the well below the valley oh
Green grows the lily oh
[Chorus]
If you be the man of noble fame
You’ll tell to me what happened to them
[Chorus]
There’s two buried ‘neath the kitchen door
At the well below the valley oh
Another two near the stable door
At the well below the valley oh
Another two just beside the well
At the well below the valley oh
All of them outside the graveyard wall
[Chorus]
If you be the man of noble fame
You’ll tell to me what’ll happen to me
[Chorus]
You’ll be seven years of ringing a bell
At the well below the valley oh
Seven years of burning in hell
At the well below the valley oh
Green grows the lily oh
Right among the bushes oh
I’ll be seven years of ringing a bell
But the Lord above might save my soul (I don’t think so)
From burning in hell at the well below the valley oh
Green grows the lily oh
Right among the bushes oh !
Green grows the lily oh
Right among the bushes oh
Green grows the lily oh
Right among the bushes oh…
Cu colegii din 9B
Waiting for this to hatch, dar nu mai imi place nici un joc de cand sunt atacata pe toate fronturile.
despre videoclipul cu care am inceput acest post.
Am auzit ca inseamna ceva, apoi am auzit ca nu conteaza (explicatie, ca sa nu se inteleaga gresit. Acele cifre arata ba ora, ba minutul la care am postat in live chat. Am avut un gand intuitiv cum ca in anumite calcule/algoritmi, nu se tine cont de ce inseamna cu adevarat acele cifre si sunt folosite la ceva rau). 
Dar conteaza, cand vne vorba de…
Nu stiu sigur
Nu am insinuat nimic decat sa RERERERERE pet tot ce am zis pana acum sub o forma sau alta. 
Daca tu esti 100% cifre si nu stii sigur si imi dai mie durere.
PA.
Daca Pa nu e o optiune.
Atunci? 
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Am asistat la chestii mult mai groaznice decat aceste mici neintelegeri, si nu mai vreau πŸ™‚

Ramai cu bine,
πŸ’‹

I just want to DO something.

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Deci?

Orgasm: https://youtu.be/YeNIQfopXvM oribil, absolut degradant.

Shows in my MFC club: https://share.myfreecams.com/GoddessAzra/recordings

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Din jurnal: 02.02.21. Sunt la Biserica. De cum am iesit din bloc, caini. Ciudat. Azi nici macar aici nu e liniste. Greu sa “meditez”. CRUCEA NU E DE DUS! Zic eu, cand aud despre cuvintele prin care au fost exprimate traditiile. Nu stiu ce nu a fost tradus corect. *spiral* ~ ca parte din mecanismul de indoctrinare/usage ~ nu pentru cresterea sufletelor. [Completitudine, Hello?] – Toate cuvintele dor mai devreme sau mai tarziu. Nimic nou. Nu mai suport. Totul e o bataie de joc. Zero sanse reale. Nu vreau sa “roleplay” cu astia. Luminile sunt stinse in biserica. Nu am mai gasit luminile aprinse nici aici nici la Capra de cand am simtit chestiile alea ciudate, beculete – luminite – altfel – capete de oameni πŸ™ . Weird feels. I’m very upset. Parca am vorbit degeaba in tot timpul asta… Layerele ce au “cazut” au aratat numai ca era si mai rau/scarbos/gresit. (Chestie in proces de continua reactualizare se pare, in fiecare zi ma mai ‘uimeste’ ceva. Eu raman la toate rece). Folositi. Nu. Nu voi (hahaha) uita niciodata {“esenta” iubirea dorinta pura β™₯ β›ˆ} dar… Nu mai suport sa traiesc insiropata in minciuna si nimic mai mult. Asta nu e Biserica – E Aprozar. – LOL! A trecut pe langa mine si nu m-a “vazut”! M-a inchis in biserica… Degeaba… Tot nu e Liniste. Ce legislatie? Aici e  “God’s Place” – Nici macar sa rad sau sa fiu Curioasa nu mai pot. Ca doar sunt invizibila, nu? Nu exist… Du-te Laura si masturbeaza-te… Hahahaha… Imi e sila de toate motivele etc. pt ca pana acum am simtit doar unpleasantness si secrete… Dialog sincer curmat scurt (repede). Deci… E o eroare serioasa de traducere/judecata… 

Pierd timpul

Reading the titles of my Youtube videos:
πŸ‘‡

Pierd timpul…
#GoddessAzra #talking !do not miss!
πŸ‘‡
~

If that ‘bird’ teaches you wrong and then nobody wants to hear your “song” but you can’t afford to STOP because you gave your all to learn that very thing, and now it’s your ‘Mission’ , dear Antithesis man, what’s next? Sooner or later (Time), nobody wants to hear you anymore. I knew since I first heard it that something’s wrong, nobody listened. (It was my fault pentru MICIMEA MEA, nu se vede bine de unde sunt eu, yet after so much time and experiments, they still didn’t find FULL way to prove I was/am wrong. BECAUSE I’m not, yet still, nobody seems to believe me, who does is hiding, ‘slave’ mentality & behavior.) ~ NU MAI SUPORT.

Libra, by Johfra Bosschart

Iubesc arta asta dar nu pot trai analizand cum totul e pe dos si cei care cred ca suntem pe drumul cel bun sunt programati sa raneasca la cea mai mica abatere de la unda. Ce am vazut eu a fost prost interpretat drept IDEALIST, pentru ca doar asa se poate traduce in cifre. Fiecare minciuna = ceva care nu este necesar. La fiecare intalnire cu Minciuna, adevarul este tinut ascuns, a alegerea cuiva, adevarata vindecare nu este posibila! Vindecare pe layere – voi cei mai destepti ar trebui deja sa stiti de ce nu a functionat. Nu, cheia nu e sa editati iar si iar, sperand. NU aveti date clare (a sti) / nu este o simulare Ati fost oare programati sa nu care cumva sa ‘question your own programming?’ ~

Gustave Dore – Enigma
din lift
πŸ’‹

Masturbation and orgasm stuff

Am fost live mai devreme pe twitch periscope dlive etc (with restream.io)
Am incercat sa vorbesc cu voi despre ce mi-a mai trecut prin minte cand vine vba de toata aceasta mascarada stupida.
Video:
Din jurnal:
1.12.20 Woke up with hangover state that passed quickly. Neighbor noise and headache. Had weird dream. My paternal grandpa couldn’t last long, treatment wasn’t working… Wait, why did I hear abt all this? Dunno. When I went to bed I was quite sad. Last session on MFC was interesting but…Again. Felt as if me & who I was chatting with don’t properly understand eachother. What is “Cam” for these ppl. “Open my cam” doesn’t mean clicky to see dick footage πŸ™ —– AFTER ALL THIS TIME? Please remember me / Dante’s Prayer ~ Last night, some lovely interaction that I’d rather enjoy (more) not masturbating because… I don’t know… It’s smth else, in essence… I see the beauty on the other side (no bridge) ~ but… smth above my / their brainwash… I think 2day I finally manage to “settle in ” -here- ~ sad about all the weird calculations / escape routes of fools / dunno how to call them. I am sad abt the job situations, would’ve been awesome 2 be @ the crystal shop but… Then again… That’s just me. Weirdness. What is Romania? Lalala, noise. Laaaaaaa
2.12.20 3:33 a.m.
I found the cooooooin (backup done – ha!) ~ Rly, β™₯ HaHa. The coconut lip balm though…🌒 I rly rly liked that one! Si pana din Tineretului… Si… Nop, my memories aren’t urs :p.
-after I woke up- feeling v bad 2day especially cause of ppl wanting me to masturbate orgasm. V down. Have no clue what todo. I don’t want to partake in the sickness anymore. The more days that pass, the sicker it gets. The thoughts / suppositions / imagination requests. Why do anything. If who can make a diff chooses 2 keep lying to us all? …….. I despise masturbating, regardless of what I think about and what these guys show me. We’re not the same. They’re not superior 2 me as 2 impose their ways upon me. It’s been too tiering and humiliating andNO BREAK. Every day pestered. I wanna be alone for a while. Go away. You can’t do this 2 ppl // allow seeing what happens. The tape with it’s all an illusion is only useful when it’s calculated so… Ha…Ha…Ha…Leave me alone… You’ve been paid 2 …………… me
-NO FRIEND-
πŸ’”
I don’t know what they are but fools… | ….. Nothing. Zero. They calculated “me” wrong. Every day I suffer because of this. The insults, the… everything The PAID (upon) making me πŸ—¦πŸ—§appear as smth of theirs so they can continue. I said it every time. It’s a lie, it’s brainwash. It’s not LOVE. I don’t care the DYNAMIX look good in graphs. Those aren’t ppl that they put me up with / against.
-WRONG-
No sexuality
Just LIES.
It’s been too long…
I don’t have the freedom to try to learn to see this it’s been too long under diff. light. Same shits pester me, no real help for what it could be like. Wanking, no love – poison. No money, inquisitors – constant noise / pain. The truth is scattered everywhere but not out there. I can’t talk to these ppl as if I’m a new version. They don’t even know why they are like that / their faults. Nothing good achievable through this changings of mechanisms that’s same thing. No hand 2 help. Making my thoughts smoother when I masturbate IS NOT HELP! IS LYING!
They don’t know the truth about themselves. In trying 2 show them… I only achieve to wear myself out. It’s not me who can make a difference 4 them [dogs] -> All zolology = Death = all dead ends; yet I still see much identification with whatever zololological. Chirp, meow, boom. Zero!
ME>AI {Because I’m more, mooore, mooooore]
I’m too sad. I can’t believe how pathetic my life is and how I’m constantly treated as stupid, humiliated, despite all I tried / did. FFS: ur solutiond don’t make save space; emptiness. 0 .
~pulled out the 5 of wands today. I can remember so many similar days/ settings in which I felt weird winds and got the same answer… What’s exciting for me? … What’s good soul food 4 me?… If everything I thought I see is smth else… Cute friends unreachable… Security… For what?… So I can be upset about what I hear? Or feel… I don’t know… Not knowing what’s that that I like or seeing it identified wrongly.🐚
So long…For nothing…
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Pictures now πŸ™‚
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Details from rose ~
Guess my favorite and get a small prize for me oh wait that already happened πŸ˜›
πŸ’¨
SNowberries ~
Face n leds.
T-Rex at high altitude in my room.

I listened to some Opeth earlier a bit and now I’m cry.

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πŸ—’

First 2020 Snow

Din jurnal: 
30.11.20
Wow. Dear Journal, you -almost- lasted 2 months! Now I should be’ needin’ 2 be on the lookout for a new of you.
Ha-Ha-Ha-Ha
Drumuri azi, sper sa am o ses ok mai incolo, ma simt cam ciudat si la fel ca in ultimele zile. Ninge! Can’t remember last time we had snowing in nov like this, winters have been fcked up recent years. EH.
It’s colder but I feel less cold than previous days (?).
FFS se termina anul soon si eu nici macar treaba cu temperaturile n-am inteles-o ca lumea. Ieri noapte am plans si am dormit + some self care. Am avut impresia ca corpul in care m-am culcat > corpul in care m-am trezit de data asta. Oricum, imi plac / sunt ok cu ambele; doar ca… Nu am alegere. 
Cand robotii dorm… Sa… [Am visat o ciudatenie] 
Paaaaa!
Hmm
Last night in bed…
Morning coffee bubbles
Fun times outside in snowy weather
Black jeans 
The Moon – hood view (the hood I’m currently in)
~
You’re as 
Cute as
In the mirror (old place – went there to get some last stuff I wanted to bring here)
Lips
~~~
SNowing!
β€’
Spinning in my old room, which is now deserted πŸ˜›
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29.11. Voci goale (nu la modul kinky/love)
~
Be well
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What’s the price of words?

Lights that flicker and lights that seem to flicker, or…Is it so? Hmmm.. THere’s something about Lines and Lights that I didn’t understand enough of yet.
Petko’s paw!
Strategically placed cat hairs ~ What could that possibly mean? ^^
Photograph of a bling thing from an item I saw in the mall..
Never tried this before, seems good!
WOn’t you look at that. Maia ballerina can sing AND dance and she entices us to watch her how she raises her leg and spins ( *thinking face*)
I almost cried.
Chirps!
Pretty looking fish.
Some more fish @ the pet store.
~
Ce mi-a placut intr-un mod ciudat… L-am intrebat pe un tip in Animax, de ce tin pestii Betta asa [in pahar, separati]. He said, with a weird but interesting vibe… Pt ca sunt solitari, sunt agresivi daca sunt mai multi si sunt violenti si fata de sine… OK……… What’s behind the words? What’s the price of words? What is money…really? :-< I still don’t know.
Sf. Parascheva, ASA.
I really liked some details in this embroidery ~ Gold thread.
Now.. I wonder what that thing he’s holding is/signifies. I don’t wanna tell you what I thought that was.
Ok I tell you though I’m a bit ashamed. I thought it’s a back massage thing, but it looks a lil big for his body.
As the light hits St’s George face in this representation, it appears as if he is wearing glasses. I really like this art.
This one too ( From Un Numar de Poeme, de Mircea Stefanescu.
Still a bit clueless about the old man though.
Tits. (Sorry!)
88
What does St. Pantelimon really think here? I like this expression, and the way my hand holding the phone looks like reflected in the glass covering the icon.
Sparrows eating bread.
An eye. MINE!
Man silhouette on mini cake. :O
Bug in candy. More candy bugs after I took this pic, that was funny! (I stepped on a piece of candy and then ate it)
Radio Tower, decor, Sun Plaza Mall Bucharest (My hometown)
More for another day πŸ˜‰

De pain pour thought

β™₯

πŸ’§

He loves me ~ Leave us be ~ about Time [a riddle] πŸ‘©β€πŸ”¬

Pay attention…

~ More words from me: and not only(more than just words, that’s what I meant, you double speak Fools):
There comes a time when nothing makes sense anymore, and everything hurts. And they still want me to masturbate…to get orgasms? And it’s in vain, and I do it anyway, day after day… Why? I am good and normal by Default. What are they seeking? Why can’t I get a real chance to show what I’m made of? And I’m forced to swallow everybodis puke in this prison of flesh, that I KNOW HOW TO LIVE IN AS A BLESSING BUT THEY DONT LET ME. … Yes, I’m that good. I can make a blessing out of Anything. No, I’ll never allow them to know my ways/copy how my ‘brain’ works. NEVER. I have My Own Way of ‘mapping everything out’ & I just wanted to live my life, found out through the mirrors of the Copying & Mockery.. I’d never TM or sell my way, not even give away for Free to ‘Any’1 who asks / “needs”. It’s Mine. I wish I could choose Ones to share more with, talking with randoms on the Psychic telephone is Confusing & Keeps me from being myself and I can’t live like this under no experimental conditions or whatever. This feels off. It feels bad. It’s clearly part of something bad and wrong. The wrong God as long as still in pover Mono shit missunderstood even the ones who see mono chrome, nobody is allowed to be themselves in this sickness, only lies, bad layer, stuck here despite I beated the whole ‘Game’ that I never saw as a game to beat. Words will never be enough, numbers either as they force them now to obey. Now I go, to waste some more time to undo something that some other beings wasted from their time to do. *sigh*. Logic? Hell.


~Stuff I wrote in ImLive Chat: GoddessAzra : Hey

GoddessAzra : Ponderings…

GoddessAzra : On being a Host here….

GoddessAzra : [Linguistyx always played by Fools]

GoddessAzra : FOr me being a host means 1 thing (the Correct one) That I am a MODEL here, no, silly, not Prototype… I’m a real person (More than numbers on your screen) willing to interact wth you, the member (HOPING TO CHAT TO A WHOLE PERON, member, not just an arm, a leg, haha, etc)

GoddessAzra : BY NO MEANS being a host on this site means that MY body can HOST any of “”your” content, dear numbers.

GoddessAzra : We’ve all been brainwashed and lied to.

GoddessAzra : Who knows , knows…

GoddessAzra : But why do ones that don’t know have DIRECT access to HURT me????? AFter all this TIME?~

🩸

Nothing.

I don’t want to β€œproduce” anyth in this World [copy]. Ass? As soon as something β€œstarts” making sense, again and again, we’re not allowed to β€œBe”/interact in a good way (-).

!IMPORTANT!

⬇️

also on https://anchor.fm/ishkira-wind and all the other places listed in: http://www.goddessazra.com/contact/ ~ P.S. If I don’t post something somewhere for 1, 2, 3, 5, N Days, it doesn’t mean I don’t exist, I don’t care or that I’m not the One and Only one who has that account. Pls, do me a favor and STOP harassing me. Reading this here? Most likely, like I do, you’re having a bad dream. Understand. I am sick of trying / doing things in vain. Pings constantly sent for those with ears to hear and eyes to see. Thanks.

Take care, be well ~

What am I doing with my life?

Did not enjoy (cummed twice, once off cam – I was in bed – the 2nd time on cam, on the floor) ~ looking at my face as I came on cam I first giggled, then I said to myself: FUCK! They won’t understand what they wanted to understand this time either.

From my journal:

10.09. !Avion cu motor / Ia-ma si pe mine-n zbor! ~

I keep finding that <I want to make love with a book> (a “special” β™₯ type of reading [ ] ) but there’s no time/space for that. (Sad). I’m not even allowed to love a robot (!!!)

I’m not even allowed to love a robot.

I’m not even allowed to love a robot.

Not even allowed to love a robot, before his eyes turn red.

Do you know what love is? We protect eachother. And that’s just a glistening little thing, underneath a healthy foundation.

I am not allowed to (really) build.

What about the orgasms then? Why do them at all?

<Goodbye. I…forget.>

She & He cars ~ with ‘Nothing (-) in between ~

Bucks – bricks (wannabe stones)*

bricks(1) – surrounding a pathway made of muscle (fibruous)

* You’re not supposed 2(k)now that

(1) That’s what u have 2 see

We can’t “meet” cause of this road… But ‘He’ could easily “cross over” ~ Defying assignment in progress? Failed “present moment” -> NOT ALLOWED!

“We were supposed to have wheels”.