68 kg 93-69-99
! Woke up having an orgasm 🙁 ~ in the dream, “mom” told me 2 have one, left the room. I didn’t like it. I was thinking various porny oral scenes* – I DID NOT LIKE – kept saying “I don’t like this”, “No”, etc. Similar 2 how I feel RL about it :(. Disgusted… !
~ I rly don’t like anything that “gets me there” – I’m not in denial – Not my animal side 🙁
Just as I got the orgasm (I was doing the countdown too, in the dream) thinking … Explosion, Thunder sound, etc, I woke up ~ having pulsating type orgasm, feeling like pushing it away 🙁
So, I don’t know what really happened, but I did not enjoy this experience at all. I never had any dream orgasm that I liked, something that I want more of. I am not denying myself pleasure, this is about something else, that I don’t agree with at all, as it appears to me (And I am not one that can’t be understanding / open minded). No good male energy to me ~ Regardless of all. The ease of how I can get mentally aroused & ‘get there’ ~ FOR WHAT?
Lack of sincerity.
Nobody talks the truth about these matters.
*Cursive, with the possibility to feel very real. Invasive, because I wouldn’t even do that with someone I trust/like/want… I felt I could browse and pick the faces, but I didn’t like any. I ‘picked’ a 40’s ish looking couple (effects). Facesitting & cunnilingus close-up 🙂
I still don’t know what my orgasms mean. Having had so many, I learned too little.
Otherwise, same thing with the same thing.
Thank you for reading.
There’s a hunger still unsatisfied