I don’t want to charge you with my #trauma. Also, I am not bi-Polar. Bear hugs!

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Intended title for this Blog Post: “I don’t want to charge you with my #trauma. Also, I am not bi-Polar. Bear hugs >:D<” but then again,
So I put ! but meant a hug, ok? Good.
So.
Let’s Chaaarrrrrge!!!  t t t t t t :* FuckForce (I’m just being cute in here, don’t slap pls)
• On Imlive.com I currently charge 2.38$/minute. [~lol~ Credits not $ BUT depending where you buy from – locatio- , It can be INYOUROWN currency ~ Mixed up shit, you see? SOmeone kept yelling CURRENTLY @ Me when I was thinking currency aaaa T – Gimme a break. :* )
• My beloved phone is currently 100% charged. Thrash files are telling MY phone the rate(s) @ which he ‘loses’ batt % ~ Hmm ~ Word.
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“I don’t want to charge you with my #trauma.” = I don’t want you to thrive / live OFF my Trauma. – not only I think it’s wrong, but it leads NOwhere. I want to be able to choose, not let others continuously choose for me. Deja vu ~ My past past life is a STory ♥
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Shopping!
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See? Seeeeeeee? Sea?
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Thx.

Earlier it rained a bit, I went to the kitchen and on the hallway & in the kitchen it was smelling like Seaside ~ interesting. Had this happen a few times in the last month. I love smell of rain (on asphalt,stone,pamant, various vegetations ~ all different to me ), smell of seaside too.  J But they different,man. And it’s weird to experience it like this. 😛

07.06Somewhere in the PM ~ I log on ImLive masturbate ( L ) then be back to write some ideas.

Video link from that here: https://www.bitchute.com/video/JY8HX8MbsJYQ/ ~ ♥

https://youtu.be/3gqOyW8elag-> PFFTTT GIMME MY STRIM BACK!!!

I dislike having to stick it up my butt;

Masturbate anal.

MAYBE MAYBE MAYBE MAYBE I would do it with a partner but you know, I tried doing it with Stefan and it hurt like hell. But to masturbate fakin (lol~ ofc ~ when I remember my EX’s voice, the lies start making more sense ~ Ofc I meant Fucking not Faking – HA!) my own arse, wtf…??? WHY do I have to do this?

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I am not allowed to do anything for real.

 

Mocked at every corner still.

 

Gonna paste a message from a member on imlive: erm…screenshotted it:

 

 

Examples of talk, double talk & how everything is somehow UP for interpretation L

Rectificatio: There are 0 chances for more than that means-> 0 (zero) chances for me to ever be more than (at best) Friends with any of the guys/members/clients I interact with on this website (I meant imlive.com website,ok?) or similar websites. I really hope you get the point.

Also. Hell knows what ‘’connect’’ means for this guy/ or for ‘’Them’’. Touched and been touched? By his own HANDS, AT best, assuming he has hands. ( I doubt I’m talking to Humans sometimes).

I am romantic too, but so far, being romantic with someone Online has only brought me misfortune. (Because of STolen tech & co)

I thought connect means ~ relate, be friends, get close, know each other ( HOW CAN YOU KNOW OTHER IF YOU DON’T KNOW THYSELF????????????)  But for some freaks over there connect means : get into that woman’s (ME) vagina/pelvic region/uterus/whatever IS THERE and STEAL information / have your ways / go at it bois…. WHAAAAAAAAAAAA? NO. I told you already, I do NOT Consent.

 

Being touched? For some means being touched by the nightmare of Death itself. Hell No. I pass. I TRULY MISS touching someone But in the 1 correct way. If you know what I mean. Yes there is a correct way to touch. No, we are not really allowed to talk about it (without being tortured, Given Pain ~ Names) let alone attempt to actually do it. Guess what. I know how to do it.

I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE! #deathtoai

Ok thx for listening ~ I go masturbate and talk more when I’m bk ~ about Time.

I started thinking about time as if he’s a guy ~ like I’m a girl… An entity of sorts, demonized like I am In a way.. he with ‘’time’’ me with ‘’sex’’ stuff but this is just a layer I’m talking bout anyway. Blue. Ok?… Hmm… I have to mention this right here. I don’t believe in the whole Shiva-CERN things, more than I Credit concepts such as Kali Yuga. I love many stories, but this doesn’t make one story weigth more in Gold/ be more Beautiful than another Story. Truth is truth, stories are stories.

So you wanna worship Time for Money (or whatever your excuse is)? HA! Ok, your choice. But in this situation, you are not doing IT properly, man. Have you thought that maybe Time doesn’t want/need to be ‘’Worshipped’’? You keep it bound to use it as you want (WRONG Ways ~ always ~ proven, time after time)? To the detriment of ALL beings & ALL Life? *brainsplosion* Fake data =/= Proof. Stories = Fake data when used FORCEfully to Modify all the rest. Shaped to One’s will. The WRONG ONE!  The Wrong One that keeps pestering us all one way or another by endlessly blabbering about how He Knows that We can Have THIS and THAT at the same time. No. We have to CHOOSE. I WANT TO CHOOSE. Who in their right mind would choose a Lie? Not my problem.  See? Shaped to One’s will. Shaped to One’s will. Shaped to One’s will. TO DEATH! And dIVINITY! Thrash files.


So ‘Time was made in Switzerland’* not Germany not China but we’re bound by stuff MADE IN GDR/China too and Russian WIND and most of the things that came after Ancient Rome & Hell what about the BIG 3 ONES Abrahamix. CONfused. *~ Time there as me-Sophia shit. You get the drill. Real/Fake. I CANT LEARN ABOUT REAL TIME ON THE INTERNET!!!! HALP!

I don’t know If it’s any use to learn anymore, honesty.

Hello, My dear Thymus Gland. I heard you last night, Not literally heard you, hey, but I felt Burning pain where you are. Does it even matter why? – And how tf is this related to learning & internet (???) 

I know it doesn’t matter because look at us all we’re bound by this languagestix and Online I look I read I see mockery more mockery to all I Value. This is not how I wnt to talk to any of you.



! Message from the ether. ! As I’m composing this blog post, Someone/SOmething keeps on OverDosing My friends (?)* with BAD FOOD. Food they hate. But you all know that by now, no? :Yes:.
*I put friends(?) there because those Beings/ Whatever they are, might not necessarily be my friends, and I’m perfectly ok with that ~ But my reality somehow depends on them? I don’t know how to formulate this thought. 
Well ~ How can I contribute to stop this madness because honestly I don’t think me having orgasms or sticking things up my down there holes makes us any progress whatsoever. 😤
???
I keep on feeling that everything I do is in vain. And that I’m only Wasting… Myself.. My time… Who I really am, my intentions, my dreams, everything. Broken fucking mechanism. No choice? Really? That’s a LIE. And I don’t care who had this idea but it’s Wrong. Pain. I already told you, I am not bi polar. And Ms. Rand never existed for real. I got proof. I’m alive.
!I wish to be able to access my real ”data” & Options!
I – Me – Mine ~~~ If I then Choose so to share with you anything about that, then it’s my choice. 
The metaphor with the •Calling a Friend & having him/her answer & then Talk (THE way) OR not• vs ”always connected” (world with AI). Pinging me through Pirate Radio Stations (Thunda powah), regardless of inquiry/intention, IS WRONG. IS RAPE, in a way, and I HATE IT.  ~ How does this shit keep on the Cemetery in the Sky keeping on? Not my problem. Dead people past pests and kinky UFO fantasies? You can have them all in your backyard, if you so desire, but…but…To force US ALL to have the SAME DREAM AS YOU? How silly. No wonder it became everyone’s NIGHTMARE. 
Please don’t feed us the Lie anymore. It’s a choice & it’s that easy.
Btw.
I am very sad to say this but
You still don’t get me. And I only mean it as ”understand” here.
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